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Ayer estaba muy frustrado con espaniol, pero hoy esta mujor. porque he dicho que yo voy a hablar solomente en espainol para los proxima tres semanas. It is a good things I don’t have to speak in order to write. heh. So far I have already felt my brain makeing more of an effort to get a handle on those things I don’t understand. Espero que este es basante. supongo que eso es no problema. sisi

shadowweb I really like this photo. A mi me gusta muchisimo.

I am looking at my computer screen thinking about all of the things that I need to be doing at this moment that do not involve looking at my comuter screen. I am glad that no one ever looks at this jornal because it means that I have no reason to write anything that I don’t feel like I should write. I need to work harder to learn spanish. I think that I might try to write in spanish in this journal so I may have a reason to work harder. I think that if I take away my options to speak english I will stop speaking english. It is to bad that it is so dang easy and useful. Sometimes it seems silly to me that I struggle to say something that I could communicate under my breath without a bit of thought in my native tounge. Everything that I think, that is not in spanish hurts my ability to learn spanish, for instance the fact that I am writing about what I need to do to to better myself is infact hurting myself, ain’t it a kicker.

I have advanced to far to fast. Right now I am in a advanczado 2 which is really really far along in the process. In my class are people who had 4 years of college spanish as well as people who otherwise just really seem to know there stuff. I have such a desire to know my stuff but it is not a strong enough desire it seems for me to learn my stuff. I hope that my present frustration will be the lead in to me learning much more in the next few days and weeks. I really wonder if I am even capable of this at the present time. I think I am, but who knows. I feel so mixed up inside it’s driving me a little bit loco.

Today I went for a walk through granada. I walked down to the river, up to the church, the university, and the Alhambra. It took me hours, I like walking. I met some neat people today and that was fun. We went out for ice cream. It?s nice to sit and talk about nothing sometimes. In spanish this is no problem for me. I can speak about nothing just about all of the time. It is possiable I guess that this is one of the reasons I am enjoy learning languages like this, there is no or pressure to have conversations that mean anything more than the immediate meaning of the words being spoken. Maybe it is best to always have conversations like this, but I think normally I expect more from the people I am with. IF the words don?t add up to somthing interesting I am dissappointed. huh.

I had a very interesting conversation with my girlfriend the other day that was focused more or less on the way we define ourselves in terms of our relationship. At the end of it we were left with the reality that we are only two people who like each other very much and hope to like each other very much in the future. This is the definition of our realationship that we settled upon. If nothing else it is a briliant affirmation of our freedom to be…
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Yo s? hombr?. yo s?. Ahora tengo no excuse para nada. I don?t speak spanish yet. That is an update to my book. How long is it going to take, when i started this jazz i think I was in for a few easy months of chilling and then presto I would have a new language in my head. but what do you know that is not the way it has worked out. It looks like I am going to have to really start to work if i want to speak this spanish thing before I come home. damn. I have been thinking that I might want to go to mexico next year to live a good cheap life and get a bit more life experience before I have to apply myself to the working world. Not that my idea of the working world is something i am really trying to avoid. It is.