thom space

I question my motivation for action quite a bit… “am I justified”, “what is the reason”, “what will this lead to”, “what is the historical perspective of the event”; you get the idea, I question allot. What this has meant is that I don’t blog as often as I would like. I mean what the hell is this? What form of communication allows a person to write to their hearts content, for an audience that conceivably could encompass every man, woman, and child on the face of the planet. Blogging is such a powerful tool, and yet it has seemed to me that it also demands to be taken lightly. I mean, who the hell wants to read an endless drone of seriousness? So I find my self stuck. I want to take blogging lightly and create a blog that don’t suck, but I am also terrified of the fact that my short little blurbs become part of the global media stage. Damn. I think that ultimately I face the problem of not knowing my audience. Who reads this? No one? every one? What should be my motivation to write a simple blog? I tend to feel like I should say that I do this for myself, but I think that if I were really only doing this for myself I would have no incentive to publish and I would not be doing a blog. SO I must be doing this for other people, and if I am doing this for other people I feel like such a self-indulgent solipsist I find I don’t do entires at all, there fore I can’t not do my Blog for other people. I am stuck. And now you know why this is the only entry I have made in the past two months.